Saturday, August 20, 2011

Diary of a married woman


While scanning Rahul’s phone I was instantly caught by one of the message in his inbox. I generally don’t read his messages but I was curious this time as I could see Priya’s name too often in his inbox. Priya is Rahul’s boss who had accompanied us to Shirdi. In the first glance I disliked her, she dresses scantily and would pout on every photo-click; a woman who is mother of two shouldn’t be doing that. I had always been quite a moral police always. I just hated her. Priya had sent a message which was kind of joke but I was aghast to read the content. I don’t like or approve women/men sending jokes of obscene content (if I may call it so) or some of them were quite flirtatious. I flipped another message that was also similar. I immediately switched to ‘Sent’ column and that was it. Tears rolled down my cheeks to see response from my darling husband. I don’t know what to say. I washed my face as I cannot tell him that I scan his phone since once he lied to me about one of his crushes in the college. I kept silent for two days. I didn’t speak to him properly. I gathered courage on the third day as the thought was provoking me so much. I confronted him asking about messages. He was absolutely normal and said “so what??”I was mad at him. I knew that he doesn’t have an affair with her but why, what is the need of such messages. With a heavy soul I called Pallavi, she had always been there with me in thick and thin. She listened to me and said “You are over-reacting.” I was calm after that statement. People do such things. They consider this fun. No idea why is obscenity fun for them. Since that day, I promised myself that his messages are strictly his business. I love him and want to be with him but not at the cost of my peace. To my delight his boss changed and I think... “just think” that there are no such messages in his inbox.

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

FocusLess


While listening to one of the seminars in college we received an excpert from ET. It was all about life's focus...i took it.....i read it..I ignored it but I never knew that it will guide my life and myself more than anything else.
Why do everybody harp on "have focus in life?" Why do we need to be focused in whatever we are doing? Why do we have to decide what we want 5 yrs down-the-line? Why to decide wht I want to be?
God made us and as famous & non-so-famous people will agree that we all have a purpose in life which God decides for us. Then why are we all so busy to decide what is our purpose!! When God has sent us with purpose , he will definitely take care of that purpose.
God made plants, animals , trees, mountains, rivers, valleys, etc, etc...........they all mould themselves in a way God wants them to be. Then why we Super-intelligent creation of God doubt him. Why can't we let him decide for us. Till then why can't we enjoy with all wht we have today. Why can't we focus on today rather than tomorrow!

Answers are awaited.................

Monday, April 28, 2008

Welcome to my blog!!

Dear Visitor,

Welcome to Blog!!!!!!!!!!!!